urrrrrgh

I am, once again, very upset with WordPress. Not, it’s fault really, but GODDAMN. I broke the theme i was working with…oops. I was trying to make it fscking cute and i almost succeeded until i hit a road block. The CSS wasn’t done very well, IMHO, and fuck me sideways i just spent 4 hours for nothing.

It’s hard to explain, but lets just say that i couldn’t make a link easily distinguishable from the rest of the site because of the way it had been originally written.

So I deleted it and now i’m starting over.

Dammit.

Janet.

Fighting Instinct

Fixed the little slug at the bottom of my journal entries. My addled little brain got confused between a font size of 2 in Dreamweaver and an actual pixel value. 2 is a bit small for most of my readers…apologies.

We set up a remote VNC client on my Mac so I can fiddle on the desktop from my laptop. It’s really cool. There isn’t too much lag since my mac is on the Gigabit network, but the choke comes through the limitations of the wireless protocol. No worries though, I’m hoping to get on the gigabit switch when we redo my walls and i run a dedicated line from the office to my room. We’ll see.

I love Maynard.

choke_me_hard mentioned her new pet peeves is people who post one thing right after another on separate topics. She’d rather see it broken up behind cuts and be 90 pages long than have someone clutter up her friends page. I did that recently, here , and my god it was a lot of work cause wordpress doesn’t have lj tags and I can’t remember where i put my car keys 3 minutes after walking in the door, let alone proprietary markup I only use on occasion. (It could if i was feeling geeky and industrious and wanted to add some buttons to insert code, but I am happy to find time to shower and post something to my journal.)

What do you all think? Do you hate it when i post once right after another? Am I clogging up your friends page?

Cause logic tells me that someone would rather read a 1 paragraph thought bubble than wade across the battle lines of a horribly strung together and random post that is 9 printed pages long.

Hello? Operator?

I think my body is trying to tell me something.

This morning I woke up and went through my usual routine. I have a cup of green tea EVERY DAY for breakfast. Yeah, so this morning 2 sips in and WHAM. It felt like someone ran a spike through my chest. I couldn’t breathe for a few seconds, for whatever reason. Shock, muscular contractions, death…who knows

This is, unfortunately, not an isolated incident. I think it might be reflux, but I am not sure. Regardless, anytime i eat or drink something now much pain in my chest and throat that shoots through to my back. It doesn’t matter if it’s a pile of tomatoes or if it’s a lump of bread. Pain. It lasts for about 30 minutes. I can function if I have something fizzy to drink because it makes me burp and I feel better and THANK GOD FOR SPRITE.

I had lunch at ABC today…garden vegetable soup…tomato base…stomach currently burning, but no reflux since I drank a big ol cup of sprite alongside. WTH. Seriously.

little known fact…

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Feeding The Spiders. Please leave any comments there.

My absolute favorite artist EVER? That I could listen to forever, hour after hour?
Tracy Chapman.

Standing at the point
The road it cross you down
What is at your back
Which way do you turn
Who will come to find you first
Your devils or your gods

Tracy Chapman – Crossroads

:( = concrete corndog

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Drinking: HomeMade Chai
Eating: A Morningstar Farms CornDog
Thinking: “I shouldn’t have cooked my corn dog so long, it’s all hard and chewy.”

I have a request for all my friends out there. I’d like to know if you have an amazon wish list and i’d like for you to email it to me( b u g [at] feedingthespiders [dot] com. They have this thing i just discovered on their site that is a gifting organizer. It’s really quite rad and I’d like to be able to send people presents that they actually … you know… asked for. A novel concept, one that my family has yet to become aware of, I assure you.
You can keep track of birthdays, anniversaries, holidays…etc. AND you can build shopping *wishlists* of your own FOR OTHER PEOPLE. I have Hugo’s Valentines, Anniversary, Halloween, & Christmas lists already started.

Have I ever mentioned to that i love to be psychotically and obnoxiously organized?
Maybe once or twice…

Last night I was sitting around being bored and doing my usual thing. Shopping, browsing, staring at my screen. Then it hit me, I don’t need anything. I don’t even want anything. Why am I doing this? More of my “in the moment” introspection and then i really thought about it and Grim and I had a nice discussion about it.

It’s not the having that I enjoy. Lots of people get stuff and then they enjoy it. I am addicted to wanting. I have some sort of Ikea Nesting Fetish and it’s so hardcore that it’s starting to fuck with me.

I have mentioned previously that since the beginning of the year I’ve been tracking my finances with MS Money 2005. One of the things I really wanted to do this year is get a grip on my shit. Well I see the problem. My actual bills are like [ ] this much of the pie chart and my necessities like tampons and groceries are like [   ] this much of the pie chart and the rest of the pie chart is all over the place.

SO. To curb this idiocy, I decided that I need a hobby. Stat. My interests are as follows: Cooking, eating, sleeping, reading, body building, design, and programming.

Cooking is a no because I will eat myself into oblivion. Eating, ditto. Sleeping, would be nice but being in a coma most of my day isn’t doable. I am constantly reading right now anyway. I have always been interested in taking care of my body. Nutrition, exercise…I find the human body fascinating and how it reacts to food and being pushed to the limit does it for me. I am a virgo, what can i say. I am also a pudgy shy little Bug and going to the gym makes me break out into a cold sweat because I am so self conscious that I won’t go unless I am the ONLY person there. Design, I do this for work … sorta. Programming…ditto.

I guess I would like to do a little of it all. Learn 2 new recipes a week. Go out to a new restaurant once a month. Take a nap in the middle of the day. Read something totally off the wall that I would never have read (ie, a Financial Planning book). Keep up with my vegetarian transition and buy 2nd hand exercise equipment for the house Take a couple courses at UT or Pellissippi. We’re always getting the course catalogs and the ones that you don’t have to have anything prior to taking the class but 2 brain cells bounding about in your noggin interest me. I think i’d make an A++ in wine tasting.

I can do all that but my main focus is going to be my website. Ego much? Not really…I just need an outlet for my creative out bursts that does not involve Target and expertly coordinated fabrics and accessories.

Oh, and I’m going to edit the program I am using to do the crossposting. That BANNER OF DOOM at the top of my LJ posts is not my style and way pushy. Promise to fix it soon!