so much
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- I rented the first 3 discs of Heroes Season 1 tonight. I made it to Ep3 before I passed out in a migraine induced coma
- Really need to talk to the dr about those headaches…
- I have a TON of books on their way to my eager brain.
- I am currently unmedicated and reintroducing caffeine into my life.
- It would really be nice if I could manage to put together one sentence after another….and form a cohesive though.
- Paragraphs is what they call them, I think.
- I think it’s time for soup and sleep.
perry thrust
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it’s liberating to know that you’re not crazy, despite appearances. i have good news. sort of.
therapy lately has been hard. I didn’t think it was going to be lots of cooing and telling me what a good person I am but I didn’t think it was going to shake me up the way it has. the place I go is very comfortable and I love my counselor…she is wonderful, yet, I have an overwhelming urge to get up and run away sometimes. I have to force myself to stay seated because everything in my body is urging me to get up and run away. This ride doesn’t have seat belts. A few weeks ago I broke down for the first time and it wasn’t over any of the things I would have thought could wring it out of me. I told her about Odie. Then I cried like it happened yesterday. It blindsided me and knocked me into the guardrail.
i completely shut down last week. i know this is all because we’re finally past the bedrock and self preservation runs on auto pilot for most of us. i have to fight to keep my ass on that couch and i have to fight to make my mouth move. in the past laying low and still could get me out of damn near everything. there is a part of me that is tired of taking the beating. time to face all this garbage and buy stock in Kimberly-Clark because I am going to need a lot of Kleenex. 
thump thump
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Woosh, said January. So here I am. My life is this weird void right now. I missed Imbolc completely. Gah
Oh so many years ago, 1001 days away seemed like so far away. it felt like i had all the time in the world. Wednesday March 14 2007 + 1001 days = December 9, 2009 (i think. if the math is off on this, blame wordpress).
Holy. Shit. Must…get busy.