For a while now, my domain has been offlimits to everyone but 2 people. I enabled user registration this morning so anyone who would like to read what goes on there, may. I have ocassionaly wanted to link to something in there and had to stop myself because users would be challanged for a username and a password. So here it is. Register or use the guest account.

http://www.feedingthespiders.com/wp-register.php

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No pressure to use either, as always.

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thank THE STARS in the sky and THE WORMS in the dirt the stupid iPhone has finally been announced and officially confirmed by the newly christened Apple Inc.

it’s lame.

it’s only for cingular.

it costs $599 with a contract.

now, can we all please shut up about it?

ktnx.

on to the next feverish round of speculation…

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my a+ book came today. it has palm based flash cards so i will be able to study wherever i like, which will be nice.

so far i’m brilliantly ignorant, which gives me hope. I missed about 11 out of 40 on the assessment test. i think that makes me a b- student. after i read, understand, and memorize all 800+ pages of this tome, i should be ready for the test.

hah.

i bought 2 carbon based lifeforms cds today via iTunes. Hydroponic Garden and World of Sleepers. i’d have to agree with the reviewer who said they’re like drugs for your ears. i also got the latest snow patrol cd because i am getting very friday night wb in my old age. i didn’t realize the wb is now the cw network. i don’t get that at all. anyway…itunes gift bucks rock my world.

i’ve been making my bed every day for some reason. my room is the only area of the house that i can clean and i know won’t get messed up by someone other than myself. i was getting pretty sloppy and that is *not* the way of the virgo. in the interest of being presentable i cleaned my room yesterday and gathered my books and magazines that were strewn hither and yon. i have a new dillema, my friends. my bookshelf has reached capacity. the books i have here that are on the shelf, the books i have no homes for, and the books at my parents house will probably fill 3 shelves. i’m thinking of donating some of my wicca books i won’t ever use anymore to the library, but this being the land of two walmarts among the mullet tribe….they might be better off composted in the back yard.

michelle bought me my tickets for the afi concert. i was touched that she’d just do that for me and i of course paid her back (i hope it covered it, anyway) which meant I GOT TO SEE MICHELLE and i got to stare at and fondle beads. oh the beads. stars and stones and oh i would go so broke if i went in there with money. i have an idea in my head for a necklace because i have really been wanting some ritual gear.

speaking of ritual gear, i want to learn to sew. i thought “oh, i could just borrow my mom’s machine..” but then my sensible side said “and tell her what? that you want to make a cloak/gown/tunic/mumu for your spiritual practice? roight.” we’ll see.

probably going to run to the store and get 2 small bottles of bubblystuff for hugo and i. i had a dehydration/sinues migraine for 3 days that i *just* got rid of so i am not at all eager to be sick because of liquor for the sake of celebration. it’s times like these that i think of all those straight edge kids out there having parties with welch’s sparkling grape juice. seriously, how in the hell do you miss people you’ve never met?

i’m lonely. i wish someone would make some time for me.

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he said change the channel
i’ve got problems of my own
i’m so sick of hearing about drugs
and aids
and people without homes
and i said, well,
i’d like to sympathize with that
but if you don’t understand
then how can you act

a few days ago Becca posted about the gender based violence happening in Africa. It is, honestly, one of the most apalling things happening in our world today. [edit: i wrote some really graphic things here about what is going on, but really, it didn’t do these survivors justice. if you go and watch the videos they are in pain and they are humiliated, yet…they are picking themselves up. it’s beautiful.] So I donated some money and I’d like to encourage anyone who can donate anything anytime they can to whatever should do so if they are compelled.

in this world, it seems, your dollar is your vote. make it count.

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Random: I bought Hugo some roses for his room a few weeks ago from Food Lion. They must have been 1. ultra fresh and 2. ultra local. Hugo had been keeping the water changed about every other day and they were sitting near a window that doesn’t get a whole lot of sun, but keeps the room bright for a good part of the day. I went to check on them today because they FINALLY started to wilt and i wanted to hang them up and dry them before they got all icky.

They are SPROUTING! I’m totally stoked. I’m going to go buy a big plastic pot (seriously big, there are a lot of sprouts), some sand, and potting soil. Hopefully, if I put them in the soil about an inch under they’ll take root in a month or so. If I’m reading my books right, they should be ready to plant by next autumn(ish).

Random: Had a good holiday yesterday. I made a big ole pot of chili in the crock pot which simmered for about 9 hours. MmMmMm good. Gave Hugo all his presents that had come in so far. Used book sellers on Amazon are slooooow and messing up my festivities!

Random: Tonight I went to see my mom and dad. Played with the Energizer Power Ranger for an hour or two then took he and his daddy home. Was met at home by Hugo and a chicken philly cheese sandwich from Lenny’s. I shall probably miss it more than hot dogs.

Rant: In the 70s Hugo adopted a Hindu based spirituality and lifestyle. Vegetarian. In the 80s he lived in Germany while he was with the Army. Still a vegetarian. Early 90s he became an ultra sexy body builder and started eating chicken to keep from turning his body inside out. Not so vegetarian, but not about to order the meat lovers from Pizza Hut. Present day, we eat chicken breasts and ground turkey.

When I was in the 7th grade I read a book that detailed the journey of sausage from cute little oink to shiny plastic wrapped tube in the grocery store. Not only was I insanely grossed out, I was morally shaken. Not only did the ethics of the meat industry strike me as seriously bad news, the environmental repercussions made my head swim as well.

7th grade, I told my family I wanted to be a vegetarian. You’d have thought I told them I wanted a penis grafted onto my forehead. Seriously. (I also wanted to study Wicca…good thing I kept that to myself until I was 20.)

7th graders, apparenly, don’t get to make such decisions. They made fun of me and would make animal noises whenever they were cutting their food. They got angry when I didn’t eat the food that was put in front of me. They refused to make “special” meals for me or buy any fancy food. Really grumpy bitches. There were a few out there that were supportive of me. Hoo-rah to you cats.

Anyway, my home life wasn’t stellar so I decided to make it easier on myself and just go with it until I could move out.

So, why am I still eating animals? o_O

I suppose it stems from the fact that I have had three people in my life say things to the effect of, “Well good for you” or “What a big decision for you, good luck!” or “Thank god you’re thinking for yourself”. Something positive, without jugement. 2 of them were aunts (in-laws, of course) and Hugo.

“I couldn’t live without meat. I need meat. People Eating Tasty Animals. I get sick if I don’t eat steak once a month. If we’re not supposed to eat animals, why are they made of meat? You’ll get sick. Hippy!”

People suck. You don’t like asparagus. I don’t like meat. Why can’t we get along!? This is not a big deal…

So, umm, why am I still eating animals?

Hell if i know. No better time than RIGHT NOW to make some changes, so I sat down at my computer this morning and decided that I want a meat free home. I’m not going to throw away what we have (some turkey chili and chicken slices for sammiches), but I’ve bought my last corpse in plastic wrap.

This includes dub too…and yes, I’ll wait for you to finish rolling your eyes. I found an ultra high quality vegetarian dog food in Knoxville that is CHEAPER than the high-grade dog food I have been buying whose main protein is from animal sources. I SAVE MONEY. Ding for me. Also, vegetarian dog foods seem to be higher in balanced amino acids and beneficial fat sources for their skin and coat. Ding for dub.

So I told Hugo tonight and he says, “It’s harder than you think.” Ok, I know. I love hot dogs. I love chicken sammiches from Lenny’s but, I’ll give it up because it’s what I want. I can’t do vegan just yet cause I *love* honey. And cheese. Maybe I’ll find a substitute and go all out. Until then baby steps.

(if you’re pissy cause I didn’t cut, then you suck)

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